This Space

In this space, where only no means yes
Where I need someone else to overpower me completely
To give me permission to be without will
To drink in the world as if I didn’t have a self to defend
To love as if I was dying this moment
No fear or doubt
Just this.

In this space, where everything melts away
Everything but the weight of my senses
Where no pain hurts anymore
Where everything moves of its own accord
And nothing moves according to me
Everything is still
Even me.

Here, where life meets destruction
Every sound is like a raindrop in slow motion
Every texture under a microscope
Every cell is on its own
Here, where cruelty rules
I am nothing
I am.